What to do?

So tomorrow I'll be helping Douglas to do his filming

To be exact it's today

Sheesh..

Previously I was full of anticipation

It wasn't till then that amount of anticipation dipped

The moment whereby I saw the email

He told me that the girl acting would be mysterious

And assured me that I'll know it on the day before

Yea I saw it

A "what the ****" moment

You know...

I was thinking maybe it's other girls

Or even from his school

Or such

True enough it was from his school

And from my school (previously)

It literally caused a stir within my brain

I finally calmed it, soothed it, it was still

And at that moment all the time taken for it to settle down was crushed

****!

People may say

Hey buddy, forget about it and such rubbish

You ain't in my scenario!

Step into my shoes, get the big picture!

The amount of avoidance was escalating

And finally came to a halt when I entered Pre-University Education

I really avoided her

She came back

And going into the making of my good friend's film

It's not agony

It's just that my efforts were partially considered futile

At this point in time

The damn loads of images keep whizzing past my mind

Expecting what tomorrow would behold

What will happen, will...

You see...

My brain has sort of malfunction

I'm really pissed

It's not I hate it

But it's just that wouldn't it be better that I delete you from my brain?

Permanently?

I know I know that I'm a wuss

After that incident

I'd never communicated with her

It's going to be tough for tomorrow

I don't think I'm going to brace for it...

I educated my brain

Stop the whirling state of mind and get into Zen mode

Nah, it's the heart...

But this time round I'm a "calefare"

Great deal I've gotten myself this time

I don't talk I just be the sidekick

Better than communicating with...

I'm really not looking forward to today

The feeling is now revoked

What's more when seeing her

Restrain buddy...

Play it by the ear...it's a feeling I cant express....

I'd rather be sucked by the abyss of gaming than to have this stir of feeling

Somehow, gaming is still way less complicated than love matters