Superficial

After the chat with my best friend

Previously

I found out a lot of loopholes

Especially in my characteristic, I knew I had to complete a lot of things

I WAS an introvert, I felt that my life was in the state of despair

The fun crowd was drifting away from me

At that time that "solemn" feeling was there

I knew I had to salvage it

After the whole incident

I knew that I had the urge to learn something

Something I lack in was the persistence to acquire a new set of skills

Basically, to flaunt

That's how the mechanism of the world works

I had a couple of friends they had talent

Some know how to play the piano very well, others had superb physique

What I had?

A silver in NAPFA, superficial skills in playing basketball etc

The list goes on, a book-smart basically

Everyone knew book-smart was important, but they wouldn't give a hoot about it

They wanted talents

I had some, none appreciated it or even cease to exist

I had much more general knowledge, like in deep oceans creatures generally are "soft" or without bones

Who cares? Humans want to see the talents, the more "tangible" sort

I possess none, I knew adobe flash, who cared?

I've made an electronic card, who cares?

This was the feeling which I had until now

Our school had this project work

Then my group came out with a product

My form teacher (Civics Tutor - CT) encouraged us to draw it on a computer

I took 4 hours to complete it on Google Sketch

With my Novice skills

And it got recognized by my CT, he said it was well done

Compared to others who are unable to complete in on the computer

It felt great, I was higher than them in that aspects

Moreover, I've attained the top 3 for Economics in the whole cohort

Best of all, it was announced during lecture

My god, that was the commencement of my "talents"

I did not felt that my skills were buried with the influx of students having varying skills

It's time to lay my eyes on the first =D

I don't know how does human mechanism works

My male friends all communicate with each other efficiently

With the common topic - "girls"

Nincompoops

Their life revolves around looking at babes

Discussing about them

Yet unable to go for them

Redundant speeches

And it poses as a huge barrier of communication

I was limited to my speech, I can't talk about girls/babes whatever you called them

I don't feel like "degrading" myself, if I wanted, how about going for it instead of whittling time away by discussing

And sometimes obscene stuffs

Yes I do agree sometimes it's funny but...

To be honestly, I don't wan to be that superficial to talk about these nonsense

I have little friends which talks about major stuff

Like what recently happened in various countries

Man, I needed more of those people in my LIFE

Another aspect

Yesterday I was summoned to a friend's school to take a look at the videos produced

Nothing was won except the best supporting actor

It wasn't about the end, it was about the time there

When talking, I can't talk to her, I was communicating with everyone except her

She was doing the same thing

My best pal told me a guy should make the initiative

To reconcile first, alright talk was easy although I shared the same view with him

But this whole thing was like a 'mess' I've decided to throw it away and not to re-view it

Yet for it's shocking appearance

Is it intertwined with fate?

I knew some things could be escaped, but others required you to solve it

The thing will come in time no mater how you try to run

Like a wanted person, one day it will be apprehended

Today I was in the same dilemma, I thought I could make an escape

I've decided to solve it, it was a special occasion for today

The best time to solve it maybe?

But I did not know what exactly to send a message

There's a thin borderline which I hope that I don't cross it

I've made too much dumb moves

I'm from strategy club! A paradox!

I sought help from my best buddy

Honestly, it was the cream of the crop (I know it's a cliche)

He helped me by crafting out the message, the main bulk of it (Or even all)

It wasn't excessive nor too dumb

The right level, I've sent it and...

I hope for the best

Thanks to Shahrul

He's one of the best "advisory" you could get in the world

Adios