Losing

All this while, I'm either staying at home

Even though its holiday

I get the feeling that the core reason why this is so is because...

Of my limited social circle?

I start to blame it on my luck

Why I have such poor connections with humans?

Is it just me?

Most of my friends seems to be enjoying the holidays

While I'm stuck in this house

With my books and notes accompanying me throughout

I guess I need to explore the world

Especially with more friends

I've got some friends which are

Serious: seems good to me, but then they wouldn't even want to make a step by going to the moves or such

Arrogant: I would't even bother to look at them

Hardworking: They are overly engrossed in their studies

Funny: To be honest, I found none

That pretty sums up what kind of friends I have been with

It sucks

There isn't any buddy who would go out together

It existed

Not in my class

And somehow the grass looks greener on the other side

Without any real deal going on

Once again I'm still left with my console

And yes

I was addicted to it

AGAIN

To grind the time I guess

Time essentially went slow if I stood there motionlessly

Time went fast as days pass

Sometimes when I have too much time

I tend to regret about my actions

Particularly that fondness

It still lingers

And really

I'm sick of just daydreaming about her

I should put my brains to a rest

By executing what I'm thinking

Sounds crazy

Now I'm still brooding over it

Seriously I need to stop this nonsense

Its only two ways to deal with it

1 - Make the move

2 - Shut up and forget about it totally

Dilemma, a vicious cycle I never got out of

Another thought came to my mind

If she just told me that

I'm attached OR I don't like you anymore

I think that will do

I certainly hope that she will say it to me

Because I have never gotten a real answer

One truthful answer will suffice

As I'm brooding over this matter

I've realised

That I began to lose sight of my goal

I want get into Business Administration

Somehow I'm moving off track

Not sure why

But on Monday I'll be having a game of basketball

I hope that will energize me to my normal potential

And not the dull me

I've always hoped that there will be an answer which I've never gotten

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